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I got married!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 [May. 25th, 2010|08:21 pm]
Dear Liza, There's a hole...
link1 locked and Loaded|Hallelujah

Go ahead. try Not to laugh. I DARE YOU [May. 10th, 2010|07:21 pm]
Dear Liza, There's a hole...

Wont you be muh gaybor? [Jun. 24th, 2008|06:12 pm]
Dear Liza, There's a hole...
[Moody? |curiouscurious]

So Inland Empire or So Cal? Anyone?

Image Heavy but we wanna find people that like to rock climb, hike, ride dirtbikes all that good stuff.
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link4 Locked and Loaded|Hallelujah

(no subject) [Jul. 22nd, 2004|03:18 pm]
Dear Liza, There's a hole...
link18 Locked and Loaded|Hallelujah

This Journal Has Gone FRIENDS ONLY [Apr. 30th, 2003|10:52 pm]
Dear Liza, There's a hole...
[Moody? |aggravatedaggravated]

All you need to do is ask and i will gladly add you but I have had some problems with some people reading too far into things. This is a journal of my life, my friends, and my thoughts from a college lesbian point of view. Ask at your own risk.

I've been through and through this, I know just how it goes
you'll have no idea, you'll have no need to know
I will make your body grow wings and take flight
I will erase sound, I will erase light

I said this vague little smile is my all-purpose expression
the meaning of which I will leave to your discretion

yes my distraction is my defense against this lack of inspiration
against this slowly deflation
yeah the further the horizon the more it warps my gaze
and the foreground's out of focus but you know I kinda hope it's
just a phase
link8 Locked and Loaded|Hallelujah

Lyrics.. yes, lyrics [Apr. 16th, 2003|10:37 am]
Dear Liza, There's a hole...
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with heaven fast approaching my words are not enough [Mar. 26th, 2003|12:41 pm]
Dear Liza, There's a hole...
[Moody? |numbnumb]
[Tunes |Morcheeba - Undress Me Now]

i'm willing to forget one million rib fractures
if you'll forget am ischemic attack
and i am just fine
with one collapsed lung
since i'll have no scars to record.
the cartilage is now gone,
and the tension more great
you know the friction will only fuel the fire
so let's smooth the joints and forget the sinew
polished bones, they need not shine-
i am no doctor, and you are no nurse.
i am only here
to make sure you are still breathing.
because i am just fine
with one collapsed lung
since i'll have no scars to record.

i am the insatiable appetite of human combustion.

enter me in metaphors and i'm all yours.

no drama please
i'm down on my knees
i'm waiting
to find my place

no purpose for me
no value i see
running slow
in the human race

thoughts still return and
emotions will burn
but words
can flow like wine

don't open this door
not what you're looking for
but don't worry 'bout me,
"i'm fine."

you know things aren't what they used to be
when you look in the mirror and don't like what you see...
seeing you smile makes me smile as well
but what use is it for if i'm going through hell
i can't make things work if they aren't meant to be
please understand this, it isn't just me
i'm called to give up, but the truth still stands:
i'd give you the world if it was in my hands.

i need this

to know

that we're for sure

that we'll be connected

and not grasping

for something

not there

i'm letting this

get to my head this time

let me be selfish

with what has been mine

for so long

s i m p l i f y



...my only deliverance

lies in my acceptance...


7 deadly sins.. hmmm [Mar. 24th, 2003|10:22 am]
Dear Liza, There's a hole...
[Moody? |curiouscurious]

1. Who did you last get angry with? myself / my mom
2. What is your weapon of choice? Sarcasm.
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? Yes, and have.
4. How about of the same sex? Yes, if provoked
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you? My mom
6. What is your pet peeve? Yuppie Scum / idiot drivers
7. Do you keep grudges? yes. Indefinitely.

1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time? Call people back
2. latest you've ever woken up? Wake up? Don't you have to sleep for that?
3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't? Stubbs
4. What is the last lame excuse you made? Dude.. CASH.
5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through? Heck yeah... I love the air filter commercials. Seriously.
6. When was the last time you got a good workout in? Two days ago
7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? I think 3 or 4.

1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? Starfucks Caramel Frap
2. Meat eaters: white meat or red meat? either, but neither
3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event? I'd say 11 beers and an AMF would top it.. but I couldn't really say.
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company? Does Xenadrine count?
5. Do you have an issue with your weight? Plead the 5th
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods? Spicy
7. Have you ever looked at a small housepet or child and thought food? All the time.. err I mean no.

1. How many people have you seen naked? Countless... thanks mom
2. How many people have seen YOU naked? Once again the 5th
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? Yes, all the time.. no really.. ALL the time.
4. Have you "done it"? I'd say so. So would they.
5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice? Hips lines.. mmm. And eyes.. lips nose ears hair yeah so everything.
6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute? nope.
7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy? Yup

1. How many credit cards do you own? Just my debit card.
2. What's your guilty pleasure store? cd or book stores
3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it? Buy a house..
4. Would you rather be rich or famous? Rich.. fame sucks.
5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? Probably not, but it depends. It could be something boring, with the potential of me making it interesting.
6. Have you ever stolen anything? A penny, I was 5.. had to take it back… nothing since.
7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive? Exact count.. hmmm ::running find program:: 647

1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of? I came out.. that was pretty major
2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of? Not a God damn thing
3. What things would you like to accomplish in your life? Complete college education, succesfull career, lasting love, lots of travel
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? Depends on what. But most likely yes.
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? Yes
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? probably
7. What did you do today that you're proud of? Went back to school after a crazy spring break without missing a beat.

1. What item of your friends would you most want to have for your own? Ryan's truck.. yeah.. mmm.
2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with? The designer of the 'friends' set
3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? Not possible anyway.. next question.
4. Have you ever been cheated on? Technically, YES.
5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? Ummm.. a shape maybe.
6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? Common sense with Math and numbers
7. Do you wish you'd come up with this survey? um no.
8. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin? lust. of course

maybe I'm just like my mother.. she's never satisfied [Mar. 15th, 2003|05:16 pm]
Dear Liza, There's a hole...
[Tunes |Romeo and Juliet - When Doves Cry (Remix)]

Two households, both alike in dignity,
In fair Verona, where we lay our scene,
From ancient grudge break to new mutiny,
Where civil blood makes civil hands unclean.
From forth the fatal loins of these two foes
A pair of star-crossed lovers take their life
For never was a story of more woe
Than this of Juliet and her Romeo

She’s never satisfied.
Why do we scream at each other?
This is what it sounds like when doves cry.

So this song is awesome. I'm jamming to it with the rain beating on the window and loving the fact that there is really nothing to be doing other than enjoying my Saturday afternoon. I miss my Jill though.. which is normal at this point, and completely to be expected. Yesterday night was amazing.. yes, even getting beat down with a giant inflatable keyboard. Too perfect, too loved, too lucky, too speechless, not enough time.

Love Theme (Kissing you) - Des'ree

Pride can stand a thousand trials,
The strong will never fall,
But watching stars without you,
My soul cried.
Heaving heart is full of pain,
oh, oh, the aching.
'Cause I'm kissing you, oh.
I'm kissing you, oh.
Touch me deep, pure and true,
Gift to me forever
'Cause I'm kissing you, oh.
I'm kissing you, oh.

Where are you now?
Where are you now?
'Cause I'm kissing you.
I'm kissing you, oh.

The best advice a song will ever give you.. take it. [Mar. 13th, 2003|08:05 pm]
Dear Liza, There's a hole...
[Moody? |enthralledenthralled]
[Tunes |Tatu - All The Things She Said]

Ladies and gentlemen of the class of '97:
Wear sunscreen.

If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it.
The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists,
whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my
own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will
not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've
faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself
and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay
before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as
you imagine.

Don't worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as
effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble
gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never
crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 p.m. on
some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing every day that scares you.


Don't be reckless with other people's hearts. Don't put up with people
who are reckless with yours.


Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead,
sometimes you're behind. The race is long and, in the end, it's only
with yourself.

Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults. If you
succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.


Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life.
The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they
wanted to do with their lives. Some of the most interesting
40-year-olds I know still don't.

Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees. You'll miss them when
they're gone.

Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll have children,
maybe you won't. Maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the
funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do,
don't congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either. Your
choices are half chance. So are everybody else's.

Enjoy your body. Use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it or of
what other people think of it. It's the greatest instrument you'll ever

Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.

Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.

Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents. You never know when they'll be gone for
good. Be nice to your siblings. They're your best link to your past and
the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you
should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and
lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people
who knew you when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard. Live in
Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft. Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths: Prices will rise. Politicians will
philander. You, too, will get old. And when you do, you'll fantasize that
when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble
and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust
fund. Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when
either one might run out.

Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will look

Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who
supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of
fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly
parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen.

-Mary Schmich

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